One month until I graduate & it is so bittersweet. All I've ever known is academia & the love of books, learning, & creating. I won't miss pointless assignments, staying up till 2 AM to accomplish them, & a number evaluation of what I'm worth (despite it being a decently high one).
It's an empty canvas from here on out. It's terrifying, yet electrifying. I keep chewing on dead ends. I keep wondering, "Where will I live in a year?"
I think my biggest goals are not to get old (mentally) and really find the right position that makes me happy & lets me pretend I'm making a difference in the world.
I'm doing better, though. I really do feel like Dante, crawling back up from the Inferno. I'm glad I have begun to visit those parts in myself. I feel my art is maturing along with the recuperation. I like to think the next chapter in my life is called, "The Escape." I don't know what will be in it, but I do know what won't.
A goal for DA in the future is to gain more attention and interaction with other members who also have somewhat decent art. Not that I'm great, but I feel I am always improving. It's difficult when you're not writing or partaking in pop culture motifs. My art escape is mostly, purely, a journal for myself, that is available for others to see if they'd like.
In other news, I will be modeling near Boston in late Spring and I am really excited for the shoot. It will most likely be beach themed. I cannot wait to take my own photos of the surrounding areas, either. Biking and hiking are a must.
& as always, a playlist of moods:
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